whoisbillw.

there's not really an easy way of saying this, so i'll just throw it out there: i have a drinking problem. it's a few months in the making, and i've nearly lost all control. but maybe that's the fluid painkillers talking: maybe i have lost all control. most of my friends and family would have never guessed, but it's painstakingly obvious to me. drinking started as a recreational thing, but it quickly evolved into a lifestyle. i suppose moderation is the key that i swallowed when i decided drinking could be used for any occasion.  i use it both for coping and for celebrating, and it's not healthy. which is weird, because it's extremely healthy.