pointless.

"i don't speak german, but i can if you'd like." that probably means something dirty. hmm.

if you're not one already, do you ever wonder wat kind of parent you'll be someday? the things you'll say, the things you'll spend your time on, the line where can no longer love your children... well that's a happy thought, let's start over. :] i've always flirted with this idea that i would starve my children of things like video games, television, and anything else that i don't personally find of value to society. i want my child to be surrounded by endless opportunities to grow, to find knowledge, to experience the world. but then msn presented me with an interesting video a few months ago. of course i can't find it now--cause that would be way too easy--but it talked about how parents need to let their children play, that schools must keep recess as a staple item in early education. why? well it's pointless, really.

the point of play is that it's pointless.

say wat? the article went on to reference numerous studies about how pointlessly meandering around as a child is healthy, but they also relied on the whole "let kids be kids" way of thinking.

the point of play is that it's pointless.

dull pencils are pointless too. and circles. this post will be too if i don't pick it up. :]

sobriety.

just last night, a friend told me that everything i'm going through--the good, the bad, and the ugly--are all healthy for me. i hate hearing that cause it's easy being drunk on life. taking it all in as it comes and living like none of it is actually happening, like the responsibility to turn around is not yours. it's a numb high, if such a thing can exist. but my friend brought a very sobering illustration before my eyes last night. she put it like this:

so many people have this idea that  life is like a giant mountain, and the climax is at the top, and everything up to that point is a constant uphill struggle. if that were the case, we would lose heart and hope and sight of a downhill, or even a plateau. life is more like a bunch of mountains connected by a single trail. unless you're tracking backwards all the time, each series of hardships and successes represent a different mountain. when god tries teaching us about ourselves, we wrestle with him, all the while traveling up the mountain. we experience success when we reach the top of the mountain, but in order for god to keep growing us, we must fall in humility as we travel down the other side of the path, into, through, and out of the next valley.

so yeah i was pretty sober after that.

wat does your current mountain look like?

we live in such a broken world, filled with broken people and broken things. africa is broken, rich white people are broken, church is broken, marriage is broken. but that's ok. i mean, not really, but it's ok because "ok" is somewhere between hopeless and fixed. "ok" is hopeful. :] we're in good hands, as are all of our problems. have you ever told god that he can't fix you because of the sheer magnitude of your problems? i sure have!

"god, just because you can create a planet and come up with something as genius as this or as beautiful as this doesn't mean that you're somehow qualified or able to glue me back together. i bet you couldn't even create that much glue!"

hope is a powerful thing. in fact, i think it's the glue here. and everywhere. god doesn't need to create that much glue because he already has! ain't that beautiful?! we have free access to an unlimited supply of glue, and it's always been here and it's up to us to apply it. oh goodness we are so broken, but we are so beautiful! you, reader, you are beautiful! makeup will never make you beautiful because you already are! and makeup doesn't hold things together like glue does, anyway. to the fellas, listen to watjesus says about masculinity, maybe even look at my boy titus , you'll see it. ladies, look no further than proverbs 31:25-31 for the definition of pure sexiness. seriously though.

so these guys freakin rock. in every single one of their videos.

well this post took an unexpected turn for the awesome. :D well, i'm looking to post on friday, and every tuesday and friday from here on out. hope you all have a great and meaningful rest of the week!

[matthew 5:8]